I wasn't sure where to post this. I went to post in vocational ministry but see that no one has posted there so decided to go with this forum. I am 31 years old, I was called into ministry in eight grade. I didn't step into pursuing that call until I was a junior in High School. After high school I attended Masters Commission (in short is a christian discipleship program) I attended for two years and then interned at a church in Northern Indiana for a year in a volunteer basis. Afterwards I took the youth pastor's position at my home church in a volunteer capacity. After being there for two years God called me to Bible College. I attended for 4 years and then moved back to Illinois. My wife and I recently became the children's pastors ( again, in a volunteer basis) at the church we are now attending. My wife is really good with children and this is my first time doing children's ministry. While I love it, I don't have the passion for it that my wife does. She tends to do more of the leading and I support with where she needs me. My whole point in this is that I'm sick of volunteer positions. I've my whole life since high school preparing for ministry it's the only thing on paper I have experience in and it's what I have a degree in (church ministries). With this being said I am stuck working jobs that I hate in order to support my family. I feel like my gifts and talents can't be used to their fullest capacity because I'm stuck working mundane nine to five jobs that use my energy and focus and gives me hardly any time to pour into ministry. Starting out in my early twenties is was fine doing volunteer. But I'm 31 now, 10 years since my first volunteer positions, and I'm still stuck. I'm asking for prayer because I know I am where God has me, I just need to see his plan and need to know that I'm not going to be stuck doing this forever. I also need my heart to be adjusted so that I don't feel this way. I want to be a pastor in full time capacity so bad and it causes me to get depressed when I think about having to return to work every Monday doing something that I'm not 100% committed to. Prayer and advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!